I am so happy for my FRIENDS!!!

To Karla, best wishes you bitch! I know that you are really really happy with CJ because you know, you can take long distance relationship like it's not long distance at all! Oh my god! That is a special talent, you should join Talentadong Pinoy or Pilipinas Got Talent for that!

To Deci, you maderpaker! It was the first time for me to see you blush (not because of Alak but) because of a man! Hahahaha. I can't believe that night was the night for you! You should thank me for that because if it was not for my tickets you won't meet your fun and happiness! Hahaha. Oh my God. I am so fucking happy for you because now, I know you are no longer bitching around. I can feel that it is the real thing already! I can't believe you are really blushing because of a man. Fun and Happiness for my my friend!

To Jorie, nakita kita kanina sa palengke and damn! You still the same hot mhamha. Hahahaha. You know what, you've become more beautiful like you never did before. My regards to your baby!!!

To Bellan, tang ina mo kang babae ka?! Hahahaha... kamusta na ang buhay mo?! I know that you are very happy because diba nga, bilyon bilyon ang pera nyo? Bakit pa kasi ayaw mo pa bilhin yung kalupaan dyan sa pamayanan nyo para mas masaya ang iyong buhay?! Hahahaha. Happy Advance Birthday!

To Menggay, ikaw hayup kang chimis to the core ka! Wahahaha... tang ina mo ka tanong ka n gtanong sa akin ng chismis eh yung mga kwento ko alam mo naman na pala, tang ina ang tanong ka pa? Kamusta ang bulubundukin ng Baguio City? Balita ko ikaw pa rin ang president ng fans ckub nung namatay sa artista sa gma7 ah?!

To Elai, ang pinaka malanding babae. Tang ina m ka hindi ka pa rin nagbabago. Ayusin mo nga yang kilos at boses mo baka salpakan kita ng cork sa bibig ng matigil na yang kaartehan mo sa katawan!

To Yangot, the one and only BONA of my life. How was your pringles and avon business? Are you already rich? Please tell me so I would know when and where to visit you. My regards to Cha-cha the bulilit because I know you and her are already neighbors in Camella Homes.

To Fantass, where are you now? I need you know! If you are alright, c'mon let us party tonight! Wahahaha...

To Mean, hoy tabatchoy ka?! Isa ka ring batang Happy sa ginagawa kaya sige ipagpatuloy mo lang. Putcha ka nagbubukas ka ba ng facebook? Baka gusto mong magpaturo kung paano i-translate yun page mo baka kasi tagalog pa rin yung language ng fb mo eh?!

To Jeffrey, are you getting there already? Ano ikaw na ba ngayun ang number 1? Hahahaha

To Philo, hayup ka! Wahahaha batayan mo si Enza kapag wala ako ha?! Bibigyan ka naman ni Lord ng ganting pala he.

To Gen, tol nasan ka na?! Kalimutan mo na ang nakaraan ang mag move forward ka na gaya ng ginawa ni karylle, Tapos na ang marimar, ginawa na rin ang EDSA! Wala nang trapik man! Habol habol!

Bakit ganito? Parang gusto ko na maniwala na kahit kailan ay hindi talaga ako mapopromote... parang gusto ko na tuloy mangibam-bansa and put everything into a reset. Grabe wala na talaga akong makitang bright light sa isang madilim na kwarto. Grabe talaga!

Hindi ko alam gagawin ko. Feeling ko tuloy mali yung tinahak kong buhay pero masaya naman ako ngayun it's just that yung future ko parang hindi ko na mabuhay. I mean ano ang today kung wala kang tomorrow diba?

Siguro nga i'm better off an educator kaysa isang corporate shit sa mundong ito. Feeling ko wala akong kayang gawin. Siguro yung landas na tinahak ko kailangan na lumiko sa pagtuturo. Diba?! At least IT pa rin sya kasi yun ang itututro ko. Whaahahaha! Pero ewan ko, mahaba pa ang panahon marami pang buhay na pwedeng mabago at marami pang landas ang pwede mong tahakin!

I feel so hopeless tonight. Grabe I thought this is a start of a greater life for me. Parang all of a sudden lahat ng mga gusto kong mangyari sa buhay eh biglang nawala na. I don't want to work in the corporate world na. I better study again and work a professor instead.

Grabe walang wala na talaga akong nakikitang rason para ipagpatuloy ang buhay bilang alagad ng industriya. Siguro mas magiging maganda ang buhay ko at mas magigign masaya ako kung magtuturo na lang ako. Mahirap mabuhay sa corporate world. Lahat ng bagay pinupuna sa iyo. Halimbawa, kahit may ginagawa ka naman para sa iba wala ka pa ring ginagawa. Kapag maingay ka, wala kang ginagawa at wala kang alam gawin na kahit ano. Minsan dahil wala ka naman talagang ginagawa kailangan productive ka pa rin eh anong gusto nilang mangyari? Humiling ako sa Diyos na bigyan ako ng gawain para may magawa naman ako?

Hay ang hirap talagang maging maingay kasi tingin ng mga tao sa iyo wala kang alam. Pero kahit na hindi naman totoo wala ka naman magagawa talaga kundi pabayaan na lang ang lahat na ganun ang tingin nila sa iyo. Sabi nga nila, you can't please a everybody.

Bumaba nanaman ang self-esteem ko. Feeling ko tuloy wala akong kwentang tao. Bakit ba kasi hindi na lang ako naging matalinong matalino para kahit magpetiks ako wala nang masasabi yung mga tao. Tapos nakakahiya pa kasi biruin mo, sumusweldo ka pero wala ka naman magawa para paunlarin ang company na pinagsisilbihan mo. Nakakainis lang talaga. Hindi na talaga ako mag-iingay para hindi na ako mapagalitan. Hehe!!!

Hay, gusto ko talagang magturo! Para yung buhay ko sa mga estudyante ko lang iiral. Tapos tuturuan ko sila lahat ng bagay na dapat nila malaman para hindi sila mangapa sa internship nila. Para hindi nila maranasan yung mga naranasan ko. Para hindi sila mawalan ng self-esteem. Para hindi mawasak yung mga pangarap nila.

Well you know, you know. Magiging isa akong professor!!!

2:32 A.M. - I cant sleep. Want to know why?

Well, it is because we had an unexpected inuman session awhile ago and I think it's kinda bitin even though I feel like throwing up. You know, I didn't reach the state of exorcismnalitioness where all I need to do is to throw up and sleep.

But aside from that, I can't sleep because there are alot of things going into my minds - realizations and other stuffs that's keeping my pre-occupied - preventing me to have the rest that I badly needed right now. You know I suddenly can't sleep (especially that my mom did a traditional ritual to avoid bad spirits in the middle of madaling-araw! Maybe she was thinking someone's here with me that is preventing me from sleeping. OMG I can't breath!) because I was thinking about what I really wanted - what I want to do about my life, my student life, my future professional life, my love life.

There are a lot of thing right now inside my head and I can't segregate them very well. They are scrumbbled all over my head and I don't know which one to attend first. You know. I suddenly wanted to do good in my internship site - i want to do something that will make me a better student intern. I don't want to sit there all day doing nothing or practicing C# for ever and ever. I want something hat will make me go crazy like freakazoid. I want to challenge myself. I want to be very productive so as to numb myself the moment I get into the real thing. You know, I wish I should have listened to my VB professor way back then so that I am not worriying about being terminated any time. I feel like I am so messed up right now I want to fix myself. I really, really wanted to learn new things aside from PHP and MySQL. Tang ina naman kasi, hayup na C# yan! Good thing talaga I had background on JAVA I was able to familiarize myself to that fucking C# easily. Damn it. This internship is turning me into a freaking p-coke addict-like person because I am being too apprehensive to some things I shouldn't really be.

Tapos parang all of a sudden in just like a single snap, I wanted to be a proffesor and at the same time a full-time employee in a company. I want to teach students and save them from bad professors! My God, i want to teach them so much like I never did before. Tang ina talaga mga instant thoughts na to. Hindi naman ako mahilig sa instant noodles pero bakit may mga ganito?! You know, I want to conduct a seminar about goal setting and leadership, I want to finish our proposal para sa inDesign Training sa mga layout artist and editorial board namin, I want to meet the editorial board para sa plans namin for the college week and sulok '10. Bad trip naman kasi tong si Ondoy ang bagsik. (@Kate Topacio-Sevilla: Feeling ko tama ka, ayaw nya sa pangalan nya kaya naman bonggang bongga ang pananalasa nya sa NCR at karatig region! Shetness shomai!). Tapos gusto mo magdonate ng relief goods sa mga nakaligtas sa baha at gustong patayin yugn mga nagmemake-fun sa mga nasalanta ng bagyo.

Tapos I suddely missed the girl I've been talking with for like a week now. Bigla kasing hindi na kami nag-usap you know you know?! Though she scared the shit out of me the first time we talked over the internet. Pero as I speak with her naman I found her interesting. You know, hindi na sya nakakatakot! Wahahaha. Parang you know, when you talk with someone, you will find yourself, somewhere in the middle, wanting to talk and spend more time with her. Tang ina ano bayan! Ano ba yan parang tanga naman ako.

Eh basta, I am loving EMERSON - PM - SD na! Wahahaha. Kahit na masakit sa tenga kapag umaakyat ang elevator kering keri lang! Kahit na may tinik na nakabaon sa aking dibdib dahil sa you know. Good thing I have my partner in crime , Keyti to do our little evil plans!

Enough of this! Hindi na ako makahinga sa usok ng insenso. Minsan tuloy naiisip ko ako yung bad spirit kasi ayaw na ayaw ko ng usok ng insenso. Ewan ko ba, may mga tao kasi minsan na gustong gusto yung usok like they never like it before! It is like an addiction; you are always wanting for more!

I was really unsure whether to go to school last Sasturday because of the bad weather but I decided to continue since I will be hosting an event that day. In fact, I still manage to take several naps before I prepare to school.

I went out at 9:30 A.M. and took the Commonwealth - Quezon Ave route to school and I was not expecting that something bad will happen because the rain was not falling that hard. It was already to late for me to realize how bad the situation was when I got near UST as the rain gradually gained volume. The water level was so high already most car couldn't pass through the clogged roads to Morayta. That was the time when our driver decided to go back instead.

At first I really wanted to go and stay at school instead of waiting inside the car in the middle of a heavy traffic but when I got home and saw the news and other pictures taken by my friends, I suddenly realized how lucky I was and how thankful I should be to that driver.

This was a first in the history of QC. Never in my life have I experienced this for the last 15 years. I've been living along Commonwealth Ave. since birth and I've been using the same road and hell, this was the first time I've seen our roads submerge in brown dirty waters! OMG to the 11th power, I did not expect something like this would happen to us especially QC is located in a higher place, in fact, I believe QC is a flattened Mountain.

I am so thankful to that driver because if it wasn't for him, I would be stacked in the middle of nowhere with no food and busted documents (which is worth GMA's life). He [the driver] never gave up in finding a way to avoid floods and other clogged roads. He pass through different roads just to find our way back to fairview but in every roads we take, flood was there. So he was left with no choice but to take our chance in katipunan where the water was above your waist already. Good thing the Lord was with us we were able to get out of that place, safe and sound and DRY. But the problem did not end there because we encountered another flooded way on Commonwealth Ave. I was praying that time so that the rain would stop but it seems that Ondoy won't listen to us - the rain grew harder as the water level continued to rise.

I managed back home before 4 o'clock and guess what I missed:

This was taken by someone and that is not a river okay?! That is the underpass from Morayta going to Quiapo. As you can see, Ondoy attacked us BIG TIME as in bonggang bonggang pananalasa. Tang ina, look how Ondoy filled the underpass in just 4 to 7 hours of heavy rain? Millenyo was a bullshit but wait, this guy sucks more than Millenyo! This is the first time I saw this road filled with water. Until now, the water remains stagnant and is estimated to be pumped early in the next morning. If this continues, classes will remain suspended and we needed to adjust again to patch things up. Actually, my fellow East Asians were no longer allowed to go out of the school premises to secure their safety. Good thing Dr. Echauz was generous enough to give them free food for the entire evening.

As of now, 30 areas in Metro Manila, Bulacan and Cavite are in state of calamity and thousands of people are now homeless. Don't you think this is now the right time to answer the call of nature? We've been destroying if for all our lives and now, it is her who's destroying us. I just hope that it is not too late for us to answer her call. After all we do have our answering machines! We can definitely call her back right?

But let's set that aside for the meantime, let us first help our fellow ncr-enyo. Let's donate food and clothings to them or if we can't do that, let us just donate via SMS donation by following these steps:

Okay. Or if you don't have money, let us just pray for those who are still trapped atop their roof and for those who died because of this incident.