Well, it's been awhile since i last updated this blog since I've been very busy for a week or so. In fact, things came in all together I don't know which one's to attend to first. There is work, life, pub, and any other things that made me look like one of the members of Zombie Squad. But I am trying my best not to be so pre-occupied with this things because i still have a life to enjoy.

I am sad right now; really, really, really sad because I had a very serious problem with my lablayf and it seems that everything are not getting any better. In fact, I don't know if I am single again right now.

Lately, I've been so obsess with a song from Silverchair called Miss you love which kinda remind me of what is happening now to us in relation to what I am feeling now. It's so EMO but I keep on listening to it until I have enough. It makes me realize how selfish I am when it comes to love and how one-sided I am towards it. I dunno but this song make me wants to tell myself "Gago ka! Anong ginagawa mo?!"

Well, gago naman talaga ako. it's just that I am different from any other gago and i have my own definition for it.

This song literally explains what I feel now.

Here's a video of the song. Sorry, this is the best copy I found. Too lazy to find an HD copy. Enjoy and be obsess also.

I had enough! I can't take it anymore. I think it is time to let all the rants come out from the deepest darkest part of me. I've been trying to understand the situation for the longest time now but it seems no changes has been done for all those time wasted. I've been wishing for something to change even just a single thing but goddamnit! It seems they won't ever change!

For those who are wondering what I am talking about, I am talking about the MRT Station (North Ave - Taft Route). You see, I've been taking the heat for almost 6 months already and during those time, I've been expiriencing hell everytime I use their madapaking train - their madapaking train!

Well I guess nothing will really change since the goverment is regulating the fare matrix and they can't simply ask for a fair hike since it is a MASA transport. And since they can't do that, I think they really don't have the extra money for renovation whatsoever shit and the money they are getting is only enough for the salary of their employee and the maintainance of the train stations and trains. But wait, thousands of people are using their services and they add up every minute. You won't even experience sitting on the couch except you aboard earliest in the morning or in the evening rides. So how come the money isn't enough for quality service? Aside from the olats services they have, their employees are almost getting to my nerves already! You see, it seems they really don't know what is quality service or they simply don't know how to respect the hands of the people that feed them. Mga bastos!

But ofcourse we can't just put all the blame on them because we, the madapaking commuters, also have our fait share to the madapaking problems at the station.

I can't understand why these people, who can actually use BUS instead of TRAIN, would want to use MRT when in fact they are just going to KAMUNING or CUBAO! What the FACT! Are we really surrounded by stupid and lazy people? I mean, If i were on their shoes, I would probably go for the BUS or JEEPNEY since it is cheaper and hassle free. But these madapaking people, the KAMUNING AND CUBAO commuters, really want to play shit with the working force of the philippines and add up to my problem as well. I mean if you are a construction worker will you ride the train when you can actually use the bus? That is not realistic for a real human being at all. Wait, how about a patient planning to seek a doctor's help? Damn, you are already sick but still you want to play sardines with us? What the fuck! If you really want to get better, make yourself comfortable by using a BUS or a CAB which can give you fresher air and bigger space. Oh, how about a commoner who just want to go to FARMERS MARKET to by palengke stuffs and all that fucking jass?! Shit you! You are just going to the market and then you will ride a train pa! Bitch!

In Japan, trains are very crusial to professionals because it is the only public transport that can bring them to work as early as possible. Those who are not working use BUS to go to places they want to go. In short, busy people use the train while the commoners use the other means of transportation. Why can't we apply it here?! If you are really not that busy, don't use the train; use BUS or JEEPNEY or FX because want to know why? You are adding to the dangs in each and every stations of MRT and we don't want dangs inside the train! Mga puta puto kayo!

Hay naku, if ever GOD would give me powers, I would wish for somethign that will give me the power to eliminate the people I don't like.

For example, I will just point to them and I will just say, "Hey you ang pangit mong putang ina ka, mamatay ka na!" or "Ayoko sa iyo, get lost. Die and go to Hell!" and they will just disappear like they never existed at all.

DIE madepakers!

I am so happy for my FRIENDS!!!

To Karla, best wishes you bitch! I know that you are really really happy with CJ because you know, you can take long distance relationship like it's not long distance at all! Oh my god! That is a special talent, you should join Talentadong Pinoy or Pilipinas Got Talent for that!

To Deci, you maderpaker! It was the first time for me to see you blush (not because of Alak but) because of a man! Hahahaha. I can't believe that night was the night for you! You should thank me for that because if it was not for my tickets you won't meet your fun and happiness! Hahaha. Oh my God. I am so fucking happy for you because now, I know you are no longer bitching around. I can feel that it is the real thing already! I can't believe you are really blushing because of a man. Fun and Happiness for my my friend!

To Jorie, nakita kita kanina sa palengke and damn! You still the same hot mhamha. Hahahaha. You know what, you've become more beautiful like you never did before. My regards to your baby!!!

To Bellan, tang ina mo kang babae ka?! Hahahaha... kamusta na ang buhay mo?! I know that you are very happy because diba nga, bilyon bilyon ang pera nyo? Bakit pa kasi ayaw mo pa bilhin yung kalupaan dyan sa pamayanan nyo para mas masaya ang iyong buhay?! Hahahaha. Happy Advance Birthday!

To Menggay, ikaw hayup kang chimis to the core ka! Wahahaha... tang ina mo ka tanong ka n gtanong sa akin ng chismis eh yung mga kwento ko alam mo naman na pala, tang ina ang tanong ka pa? Kamusta ang bulubundukin ng Baguio City? Balita ko ikaw pa rin ang president ng fans ckub nung namatay sa artista sa gma7 ah?!

To Elai, ang pinaka malanding babae. Tang ina m ka hindi ka pa rin nagbabago. Ayusin mo nga yang kilos at boses mo baka salpakan kita ng cork sa bibig ng matigil na yang kaartehan mo sa katawan!

To Yangot, the one and only BONA of my life. How was your pringles and avon business? Are you already rich? Please tell me so I would know when and where to visit you. My regards to Cha-cha the bulilit because I know you and her are already neighbors in Camella Homes.

To Fantass, where are you now? I need you know! If you are alright, c'mon let us party tonight! Wahahaha...

To Mean, hoy tabatchoy ka?! Isa ka ring batang Happy sa ginagawa kaya sige ipagpatuloy mo lang. Putcha ka nagbubukas ka ba ng facebook? Baka gusto mong magpaturo kung paano i-translate yun page mo baka kasi tagalog pa rin yung language ng fb mo eh?!

To Jeffrey, are you getting there already? Ano ikaw na ba ngayun ang number 1? Hahahaha

To Philo, hayup ka! Wahahaha batayan mo si Enza kapag wala ako ha?! Bibigyan ka naman ni Lord ng ganting pala he.

To Gen, tol nasan ka na?! Kalimutan mo na ang nakaraan ang mag move forward ka na gaya ng ginawa ni karylle, Tapos na ang marimar, ginawa na rin ang EDSA! Wala nang trapik man! Habol habol!

Bakit ganito? Parang gusto ko na maniwala na kahit kailan ay hindi talaga ako mapopromote... parang gusto ko na tuloy mangibam-bansa and put everything into a reset. Grabe wala na talaga akong makitang bright light sa isang madilim na kwarto. Grabe talaga!

Hindi ko alam gagawin ko. Feeling ko tuloy mali yung tinahak kong buhay pero masaya naman ako ngayun it's just that yung future ko parang hindi ko na mabuhay. I mean ano ang today kung wala kang tomorrow diba?

Siguro nga i'm better off an educator kaysa isang corporate shit sa mundong ito. Feeling ko wala akong kayang gawin. Siguro yung landas na tinahak ko kailangan na lumiko sa pagtuturo. Diba?! At least IT pa rin sya kasi yun ang itututro ko. Whaahahaha! Pero ewan ko, mahaba pa ang panahon marami pang buhay na pwedeng mabago at marami pang landas ang pwede mong tahakin!

I feel so hopeless tonight. Grabe I thought this is a start of a greater life for me. Parang all of a sudden lahat ng mga gusto kong mangyari sa buhay eh biglang nawala na. I don't want to work in the corporate world na. I better study again and work a professor instead.

Grabe walang wala na talaga akong nakikitang rason para ipagpatuloy ang buhay bilang alagad ng industriya. Siguro mas magiging maganda ang buhay ko at mas magigign masaya ako kung magtuturo na lang ako. Mahirap mabuhay sa corporate world. Lahat ng bagay pinupuna sa iyo. Halimbawa, kahit may ginagawa ka naman para sa iba wala ka pa ring ginagawa. Kapag maingay ka, wala kang ginagawa at wala kang alam gawin na kahit ano. Minsan dahil wala ka naman talagang ginagawa kailangan productive ka pa rin eh anong gusto nilang mangyari? Humiling ako sa Diyos na bigyan ako ng gawain para may magawa naman ako?

Hay ang hirap talagang maging maingay kasi tingin ng mga tao sa iyo wala kang alam. Pero kahit na hindi naman totoo wala ka naman magagawa talaga kundi pabayaan na lang ang lahat na ganun ang tingin nila sa iyo. Sabi nga nila, you can't please a everybody.

Bumaba nanaman ang self-esteem ko. Feeling ko tuloy wala akong kwentang tao. Bakit ba kasi hindi na lang ako naging matalinong matalino para kahit magpetiks ako wala nang masasabi yung mga tao. Tapos nakakahiya pa kasi biruin mo, sumusweldo ka pero wala ka naman magawa para paunlarin ang company na pinagsisilbihan mo. Nakakainis lang talaga. Hindi na talaga ako mag-iingay para hindi na ako mapagalitan. Hehe!!!

Hay, gusto ko talagang magturo! Para yung buhay ko sa mga estudyante ko lang iiral. Tapos tuturuan ko sila lahat ng bagay na dapat nila malaman para hindi sila mangapa sa internship nila. Para hindi nila maranasan yung mga naranasan ko. Para hindi sila mawalan ng self-esteem. Para hindi mawasak yung mga pangarap nila.

Well you know, you know. Magiging isa akong professor!!!